i finally got around to it

i finally saw the d*ck in a box skit from SNL with justin timberlake, pretty funny. it'a slways good to see that some celebrities don't take themselves entirely seriously. today is like the day after christmas to me, nothing to do, don't really want to do anything. i feel as if the storm has been weathered, whatever that means. i'm still feeling overwhelmed by the social calendar. i don't usually have much to do on the weekends, but post graduation, x-mas, grad party, jamie's 30th, and then new years, dang, it's almost too much. i even skipped out on greensmans party this year, (an annual tradition) i wasn't feeeling up to driving the kids up there to party with the gays. next year when the schedule isn't quite so hectic, i'll go.

i think no. 2's new slippers are the cutest things in the world, i mean, they're your basic fleece slippers, but they look really tiny and cute on him. they're also loving the wedgits i got them, now we need to go spend the $75 each gift cards they got from target, they're burning holes in their pockets....

blues for christmas

haha, x-mas is over this year and we've only had a few traumatic meltdowns. all were due to inabilities to read names on tags. no. 1 had a crazy meltdown when i told him that the gifts he was opening were not to him, but from him, you see, he recognized that his name was on the card, but didn't realize there was this to/from thing going on, so when i told him, he gt really mad and i thought he was going to go exorcist on me, seriously folks, linda blair type sh*t. at least we snapped a few pics of his demonic face, but i need to get em from my bro. i do however have this......



this is what x-mas eve looks like at my house when santa is visiting.

diff'rent strokes for diff'rent folks

i have recently developed a crush on a person (no secret now) whom is not really what any one of my friends would consider my "type". now, the last 2 crushes i have had have been on people who are not my "type", or at least, my previous type. i think it comes along with the changing of perspective you get when you either turn 30, have kids, or just have been in numerous relationships with people who are your "type", but didn't work out so well. i mean, doesn't that kind of say, "hey, my 'type' doesn't seem to be working for me?" i also think that with the changes i have made in life as of recently, why not date someone completely out of my realm of comfort? never in my life have i ever thought i would date someone who likes football, but i have also found that it's virtually impossible to find non-football-likers here. and those who don't like football, tend to fall in the category of my "type", which as we discussed ealrier, tend to be relationships that don't work out for me. are you feeling me people? i'm moving out of the comfort zone. i find it funny that when you have been in a crappy relationship, you are always the wiser when it comes to what you look for in a mate, like cleanliness. uh-huh, you know who i'm talking about...then again, they are but mere crushes, people i do not know intimately. it becomes less a physical attraction, and more a 'could i live with this person' attraction. does he/she feel the same way about politics that i do, do we share musical interests? are they a smoker? do they clean their house? kids? financial stability? drinker?... it's crazy all the factors that go into relationships with age. no wonder it gets harder as you get older, you become way more picky about social tendencies, and less about physical attraction. sometimes you luck out and get both.

school's out for-evah!

haha, school is audi 5000, uh-huh... final's are ovah! not only that, but today i gots me a job, yup, thas right, i'm gainfully employed. for those of you who are naysayers, told ya so! i so totally rock, how could you even doubt....

now, where's the party at?

so weird when you find out what they're doing...

i ran into this girl i went to high school with the other night. in fact, i approached her in a shoe shop as i was browsing, and usually i don't even go so far as to do this because i hated high school and pretty much if you weren't very nice to me, i could really care less of what you've made of your life, anyways, she was nice, so i decided to see what she was up to. well, she's chillin in kc, real estating and making jewelry. we talked about some old classmates and there was a girl who i was pretty much best friends with during high school, who was a mutual friend of this girl i ran into. anyways, my ex-best and i had this crazy falling out our freshman year of college over some bs kind of thing, either i did too much drugs, or she thought i wanted to have sex with her, which would make me a lesbian, which i'm not, but i digress. come to find out, she's in this somewhat up and coming, but kind of already a hit, indie band called blood on the wall. i guess they tour a lot and played with sonic youth and dinosaur jr and the yeah yeah yeahs. how strange is that? i looked them up on google, and their myspace page played a song that was pretty decent. i'm always in awe about when people i know do things really out of the ordinary from what i thought they would be doing. strange. i don't know, i'm just kind of weirded by it, that's all...

procrastination day

yeah, i told my mom i was going to study all day today, what did i do? nada. i did the crossword puzzle, watched some boob tube and then bailed out and went shopping and to a movie with bk. we went to see the holiday, which i can't really say that i recommend to anyone, this time i'm with bk. usually i defend movies, but i can't say that this one has too many redeeming qualities, with the exception of kate winslet. she was good, not fabulous, but good. anyways, we went to urban outfitters afterwards where many annoying teens were shopping. uggg, i'm starting to get that old people mentality. speaking of getting old, i've never really been one of those people who freaks out about birthdays and dreads getting older, but i do rememeber going through this when i turned 26. i felt that 26 was an age where you should already be on your career path and just beginning to be successful, which was far from any place that i was in life, but then by the end of my 26-dom, i had a kid, and i still felt wayyy tooo young to have one. now it seems normal, and i'm glad i had them young, but in retrospect, i do wish i had been more grounded in life and had been a bit more successful, but that's nothing to dwell upon. this year, however, i am turning 33. now i'm starting to really feel the pressure; 2 kids, living in my mom's basement.... it's the mid-thirties people, yep, mid, not early, mid! i'm not sure of the significance i find in this birthday, rather than the round 30, or 40 year, but i just do.inexplicable. i remember when locker-bee thought her life had peaked after 21, she hated turning 22. i think she still hates birthdays. what birthday hit you the hardest?

wish list

10 things i really want for christmas:

1. a job
2. a new watch
3. earbuds
4. new brassieries
5. a straightening iron (for the hair that will be cut off on january 3rd)
6. some camper shoes like tina's
7. pearl earrings, i'm not really sure why.
8. a new sets of tires for the snaab car
9. new danskos
10. to pass my boards

ridiculous classes

i have had at least 3 ridiculous classes that i have been forced to take to receive my associates degree, and i am now currently enrolled in one of them, public speaking. jesus h, how many speeches do i think i will ever be making in my lifetime? none. it's not that i get all panicky, which i do a little, or that i hate the idea of people staring at me or anything, i just don't think it's a very valid class for my specific career path. just the same as how when i was a fine arts major, there were no required math classes to receive your bfa degree. i agreed with that one, what did i need math for? (although i do use math quite a bit, just not crazy algebraic equations or anything.) anyhow, i am doing this speech on the origins of chocolate, since i know a thing or two on the subject, and i've been trying to find these things called cocoa nibs, which are little bits or the cocoa bean that are ground up and made into chocolate. they do sell them, and i've only had them once about 5 years ago when working with the american. they are pure unsweetened chocolate, and they're really good although bitter at first taste. anyways, i wanted to find some and use them as a support to my speech, but i can't find them without going through a distributor and buying a large quantity, but i did find this recipe for some cookies with them that look de-li-cious....